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Height: 5’1
Weight: 119lbs
Dress Size:  5
Highest Weight: 131
Lowest Weight: 117lbs
Goal Weight: 107
Favorite Diet Food: celery
Favorite Binge Food: cheeze its
Favorite Exercise: elliptical and swimming
Favorite Thinspo: rib cages and perfect tummies

Where Do You Slip Up? when i have a bad day

When Did It Start? when i was 13
Does Anyone Know?  3 people
Do You Want Help? no
How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day? 100-800(on a bad day)
What Do You Think When You Look In The Mirror? the body that im stuck in is not the person that wants to get out
Are You In A Relationship? yes
Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends? well my best friend is 106 sooo-____- yeah
Are You Depressed? depresssion,OCD,PMDD,body dismorphia,anxiety.ive been diagnossed with all of these
Ever Tried To Commit Suicide? twice
Ever Been To A Psychologist?  doesnt fucking work

I AM:  

[ ] anorexic 
[ ] ednos 
[] bulimic 
[ ] living off diet pills 
[x] hungry 
[] thirsty 
[X ] drinking something 
[ ] Under 100lbs 
[ X] fasting/starving myself

PEOPLE: 
[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic 
[x] have called me fat
[x] have said I’m skinny
[x] have said I’m ugly 
[x] have said I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me 
[X] force me to eat 
[x] say I eat too much
[ x] wish I’d eat more 
[ x] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic/ednos

I WISH: 
[x] I was THIN 
[x] I had a better body 
[x] I didn’t have to eat 
[x] I could control myself 
[x] I was under 110lbs 
[x] I could avoid food 
[ ] I could hide what I am 
[x] I wasn’t fat 
[x ] I was pretty 
[ ] I could stop being anorexic/bulimic/ednos

I LOVE:
[x] feeling hungry 
[x ] seeing a difference when fasting 
[x ] shaking 
[x] feeling airy 
[x] losing weight 
[ ] being anorexic/bulimic 
[ ] green tea 
[ x] diet pills 
[x] being able to turn down food 
[x] feeling good about myself 

APPEARANCE: 
[x] I am shorter than 5’4
[ x] I think I’m ugly
[x] I have many scars 
[ x] I wish my hair was a different color
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color
[ ] I have a tattoo
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance
[] I have/had braces 
[] I wear glasses 
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free 
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger 
[x] I have more than 2 piercings
[x] I have piercings in places besides my ears 
[x] I have freckles 

FAMILY:
[x] I’ve sworn at my parents
[x] I’ve run away from home 
[x ] I’ve been kicked out of the house 
[ ] My biological parents are together 
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old 
[] I want to have kids someday
[ ] I’ve had children 
[ ] I’ve lost a child 
[ ] I can’t have children

RELATIONSHIPS: 
[] I’m single 
[x ] I’m in a relationship 
[ ] I’m engaged 
[ ] I’m married
[x] I’ve gone on a blind date 
[ ] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper
[x] I miss someone right now 
[] I have a fear of abandonment 
[x] I’ve cheated in a relationship 
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced 
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back
[x ] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t
[x] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did 
[x] I’ve kept something from a past relationship
[x] I’ve been ‘the other woman’

SEXUALITY: 
[x] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] I’ve had a crush on a teacher 
[x] I am a cuddler
[x] I’ve kissed in the rain
[x] I’ve hugged a stranger 
[ ] I have kissed a stranger

BAD TIMES: 
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol
[ ] I regularly drink
[ ] I can’t swallow pills
[x ] I can swallow numerous pills at a time without water
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression
[ x] I shut others out when I’m upset
[x] I take/ took anti-depressants
[ ] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it 
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose
[x] I’m addicted to self harm
[x] I’ve woken up crying 
[x] I’ve lost weight 
[x] I’ve gained weight 
[x] My weight holds me back 
[x] Weight consumes me 
[ ] I’m at my thinnest 
[ ] I’m at my biggest 
[x]  I’ve lost weight and kept it off 
[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back 
[x] My weight affects my mood 
[] I weigh myself daily 
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me 
[x] I thrive on compliments 
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size 
[x] I feel happy when I’m hungry 
[x] I get depressed after I eat 
[x] I’ve skipped a meal 
[x] I’ve thrown food away 
[x] I’ve spit food out 
[x] I’ve fasted 
[ x] I’ve taken diet pills 
[ ] I’ve used laxatives 
[x ] I’ve purged 
[x] I exercise 
[x ] I exercise so I can eat 
[] I work out secretly 
[x] I work out daily 
[ ] I’ve fainted from exhaustion 

I’ve done: 
[x] Weed 
[x] Cigarettes 
[x] Alcohol 
[x] Diet pills 
[x] Pain killers 
[ x] Sleeping pills
[x] Anti-depressants 
[ ] Ecstasy 
[] LSD 
[x] Mushrooms 
[ ] Speed
[ x] Cocaine 
[x] Other

HABITS:

[x] I keep my eating habits a secret 
[x] I look at thinspo 
[x] I collect thinspo 
[x] I count calories 
[] I’ve had negative intake days 
[x] I avoid food 
[x] I hate food 
[x] I love food ……… love hate relationship
[ ] I want to be this way 
[x] I don’t want to be like this 
[x] I wish I could have more control 
[x] Being thin is my top priority 
[ ] I am in treatment 
[x] I’m doing this for me 
[] I’m doing this for someone 
[x] I’m doing this to prove myself